Big Rubz – Never Free

Following an energised rap, here’s another.

This song represents the monotony of life, how we wear a mask, especially those among us with neurodiversity, a mask to survive and meet expectations, proving we can function in a socially acceptable way, usually at the cost of authentic. One way of processing this is that we are reimbursed for our efforts but still costs the luxury of our energy, attention and focus. These factors by definition of a disability can be hard to capitalise to investing them can be a double edged sword.

I discuss how, despite living life fuelled by emotions and trauma, that I always try to avoid violence, including arguments. This can lead to keeping people at an arms length to prevent becoming hurt or avoid situations which I may not be energised by.

‘The beast’ represents the true version of myself. Now and the future. Seeing glimpses but not seeing the whole picture. I am cautious about the company I keep and I regularly review this, test this, sometimes to buffer my mental health, and sometimes to test trust and loyalty.

Here’s a glimpse into me, I hope there’s some lyrics you can harmonise with. Enjoy the track.

Stay free, stay you, stay fruity.

Real Rubens.